A pray to God

"A pray to God"

Write once again, because you can. 

Write him for me. 

Make me his. And make him mine. 

Make him mine. 

Make him mine. 

-Fa

Whole.

Here is the thing.

I don't care, about life.

I have had enough heartbreak

for such a short lifetime. Don't try to protect me. 

All I want is friendship now.

All I want is love. All I care about now is just that. 

I am not broken. I am made up of scars and losses; huge losses,

depression, exoticism and romance.

I am whole.

Trust me in that. 

-Fa

So painful and so secure

I am not who I used to be. 

And it feels

so painful

and 

so secure

to know that. 

-Fa

November

Flowers are fragrant just like

there always are. 

Trees aren't greener. 

The sky isn't bluer,

and there is nothing special about November. 

Do not get over excited. There is nothing 

in the weather. 

-Fa 

Vacant expressions

Your vacant expressions have got me going crazy. 

And I still don't wish you said more.

-Fa

It's wrong.

I love you so much, it's wrong. 

-Fa

Emotionally imbalanced.

I might be emotionally imbalanced 

and a total wreck at feelings. 

But I know how to regard them.

What I have for you is beautiful. 

It is not going to be called chaotic or ugly

 or devastating.

Just because I can't have you. 

-Fa

Not broken.

Here's the thing. 

I don't care, about life. 

I've had enough heartbreak for such a short life time. 

Don't try to protect me. 

All I want is friendship now. 

All I want is love. 

All I care about now is just that. 

I am not broken. I am made up of scars and losses;

huge losses, depression, exoticism and romance. 

I am whole. Trust me in that. 

-Fa

Darkness and peace.

Darkness; no matter

 exhilarating, reticent, divine: chaotic. 

Peace; no matter 

empty, tedious, white: free.  

-Fa

Thank yous.

I like a special kind of thank you. Multiple reasoned.

 At the end of the day. Politely. In response to an everyday doing such as fetching water, 

or telling a story or making hair or passing the remote to someone. 

And then they look you in the eye, and say "thank you". 

You know just then and right there, it is actually for everything 

they never knew how say thank you to. it is a thanks to your kindness. 

Your affection. Your care. And regard. 

It is a thanks to your beautiful nature, a million dollar "thank you"

 hidden inside a regular thank you. 

I like these kind of thank yous. 

-Fa