I'm really not sure that there is a god who is a conscious sole creator of everything, but I am sure that if I am unaware and there is one, they would be happier with me than they are with someone who is penalizing others, especially their own children, for their lack of blind belief in something invisible. I am sure that if there is a kind god, they would not approve of the behavior of a parent who alienates their child from their family because the offspring doesn't follow the path of the parent's life. I am sure that if there was a just god, they would disapprove of a parent telling their child that that they are paving their way to hell and is trapped by Satan for honestly admitting to the lack of evidence in the stories of a religion. The parent is the real Satan for disowning their offspring for unreasonable beliefs, causing stress into the child's life due to extreme criticism, not giving their daughter equal opportunities as their sons, depriving her of the freedom to have a social life, or any kind of life other than the one they choose for her, to have a partner of their choice, for not giving privacy to adult daughters, stopping her from pursuing a career of her personal choice, putting unfair restrictions upon her, and so much more.
I don't need Allah to be kind and honest, and Allah doesn't need my worship, but if you need to them to live your life, then I hope you seek refuge in your Allah to find the true meaning of kindness and take a look at your language with me in your messages and reflect on who is being hurtful to whom.
I have never asked for a penny and you have also barely spent anything on me since I was 19. My childhood was a mess - not letting me study in co-ed, not allowing me to participate in sports, not letting me befriend any boys or even talk to them, or look at them - you still justify these ancient lifestyle choices. Me trying to stay in touch with you was only because I hoped for mutual acceptance and support like a normal family. This is 2025. There is no excuse yourself on best practices of parenthood and growth. But sadly, it seems like you are least concerned about my well-being. You are too old, and I didn't want to remind you of your misdoings towards me throughout my life and for creating obstacles in my way to living life to my true self, to not make you feel guilty. But your treatment towards me is outrageous, and I am tired of being the good person, and taking your harsh treatment silently.
It makes zero sense that you are worried about me because if your worry is about how God will treat me while believing that god is fair, then God is definitely not going to treat me with anything but love. If God is kind, fair and appreciates honesty, then I am 100% safe from any punishment or anger from him. Because ethical, fair, kind and all-seeing God will see that I give love freely. I do kind things to simply be kind, and make the world a better place for people to live. My kindness is not backed by the selfish desire of jannat in the end. I care about people not out of subservience to anyone, but because I genuinely care. I am proud and grateful that in my life now, I speak only the truth. I realize my mistakes and try to be a better person everyday. Any fair god would see me and love me more than anyone else. If there is divine power that looks after someone, then I am so sure that I am so very protected. You have no idea the shit that I have to go through here, and how I am still alive, healthy and housed. Maybe it is the divine power keeping me safe and happy.
You are not worried about me, rather it is your ego getting the best of you since someone in your house, probably the first woman in generations, chose a path different than the one that is traditionally and religiously set out for women. It is difficult for you to accept that someone can be free, happy and also be on the right path in an unconventional way.
You can say all you want, the truth will remain the truth that I am an honest person and I speak the truth and you are being unfair to me.
You should at least stop lying to me, and maybe to yourself about how worried you are about me. There are no signs of worry or love for someone in the behavior that you represent.
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