Life twisted, turned and took me along with it while it jerked and messed up my intestines, my heart, and my head. But somehow, I feel stronger.
I have more ideas on paper (digitally, really) than I ever did. I have lived most of my life terrified of my parents' reaction when they learn their daughter is essentially paving her way to hell. Now - I know I was already in hell, but I understand how I can turn it into heaven for myself.
I have learnt how little I truly know about what life is. I have also learnt that it is okay for me to not have all the answers. I am prepared to answer my parents' objections in a logical, calm (hopefully), kind and respectful manner. I have openly and honestly confessed how much I love my mom and dad. My mum says that if I do not pray (the Muslim way), I do not love her. Well, I really do not pray. Do not intend to either. I still love my mum - no doubts about that.
I have decided to share everything about my life and my journey in various forms. Love won all the battles in my life. My goal is to join hands with the humans of the world and let them know they deserve to be understood, loved, and accepted. I will hold the hand of anyone and everyone standing next to me in the circle of global companionship. Your mental health challenges (and trust me, you got 'em), race, color, country, accent has no weight in the eyes of the kindness you deserve. My goal is to make you realize that. My goal is to reveal the beauty of love that I have come to experience to the rest of the world.
I have learnt about the path that leads to feeling stronger, more satisfied and healthier. I have learned to release fear from my heart. I have chosen a path to follow in life and I hope to meet you there someday.
Afaf J.
