Peace and rose petals

I couldn't be doing any better

And I never knew this would be my life one day

My emotional state is a mess, 

Like always

Shall I say

The love inside of me keeps getting bigger, I wonder does it even have an end?

I don't want to hurt anyone, I know, I just don't

I believe in peace and rose petals

My mind is devoid of hatred 

And I am open to have my heart broken again

Raj says, its stupid to beleive it but I wish you all the best

They don't know how over the clouds and mountains and angels of life and death

I see myself at

So do you wonder?

If I am insane anymore?

It's temporary, this life

Carrying an amputated head in one hand, and a bag of roses in the other 

Its for you to decide 

To be judgemental and hold the despise

Or to make friends with everyone in the world

Open to the possibility,

And the unlimited positive energies,

Waiting outside your door, 

Knocking politely,

A little hospitality will do, 

Open you eyes, or don't

It doesn't even matter,

Just open your heart

And love

Everything you see

And Everything you don't 

Past. Present. Future.

                        

Loyalty is sexy, 
She has stuck by me all my life

And nothing felt better than my time with her

It was all so beautiful

We saw dreams together, 

Or at least I did

And so it is, 

I'm forcing life on myself

I am forcing a false belief

I am incomparably happy with my decision 

Then why is it, that I felt so bad that day?

Infatuation shouldn't come in bits and pieces

My twisted emotions need to get their shit together

It confuses me like time

It's scary like blood

Bewitched with demonic love

It can break you and make you, 

Both at once

Reality is nothing, so isn't love

Put you head in my lap now,

Hand me the machete

Sleep sweet child, 

Everything's fine,

Its all going be over now

Fighter

I know

I know who you think I am

I know you think that I'm this arrogant person who gets away with things the wrong way

You think I have liberated myself from the world and its boundaries and norms, 

But you underestimate the power of ideas you put inside my head when I was just a child, 

Today I am scared when I do the grocery shopping myself

I am scared of the taxi driver who drove me home today

I question my judgements, and I consider myself arrogant

I have a part of you inside of me, and I don't think you see that

I think you just see the part of myself that's battling everyday to find my reality

I think it scares you, 'cause this is not something that you're used to

But let me assure you, and if it gives you any comfort, I am scared inside

And while I know what I do not want, I am also not sure of what I want

So there you go, 

Take pleasure in that, 

You did a good job, 

I am not that confident, after all 

But there is a but even after that

I swear to god, I will never give up

Broken heart, damaged body and demons and a shattered belief; it didn't even touch my fervour

The rush in my blood is too heated, 

It stops me from letting in 

As long as this mutilated heart will beat, 

And as long my twisted brain will speak,

I will not surrender, 

I will not surrender.